Growing up, strange things would occur quite often. There would be times when I would see a black shape flying across the room and often times I would experience feelings and premonitions that something was about to happen.
One of these experiences occurred when I was thirteen, fourteen years old and I was in the bathroom with the door open looking at my reflection in the mirror. Suddenly, I saw this black shape fly past the door and I looked back to see what it was but I didn’t see anything. That was until I looked back at my reflection and I saw a face of a ghost who appeared to have been my age if not a couple years older and he was as white as a sheet of paper, his eyes were black, his hair was also black but was short, and he just looked at me, smiling. In the next instant, it was gone. Who this could have been was beyond me. Was he someone I knew? Did he know me? I didn’t know because I hadn’t received any news that day that anyone I knew had died.
Was I afraid of this ghost? No, I wasn’t. I didn’t see any reason to be afraid. But I soon found out that my oldest sister also had the ability to see these black shapes that appeared out of nowhere. It was after my father passed away, when she saw a black shape fly out from under her sons bed. She believed my father, who loved his grandson very much, was there to say goodbye. Although my mother thought she was on drugs, I knew from my experience that she was telling the truth.
Not only could I see these spirits or apparitions, I often got premonitions that something was about to happen. I remember when I was riding in a car with my mother and we had stopped at a stop sign getting ready to turn left. We couldn’t see if there were any cars coming because there was a truck next to us that was getting ready to turn right. My mom was about to dash out into the road when I suddenly heard this voice in my head telling me no a car was coming. So I yelled, “Don’t go! There’s a car coming!” and, sure enough, right at that moment a car sped by. If my mom had pulled out in front of the oncoming car we would have been seriously hurt… or dead. I was never so afraid in all my life, and to this day, I remember the feeling that came over me. Every hair on my body stood on end and there was a cold chill wrapping itself around me. As soon as the danger was gone, I felt like myself again.
Years later, my mom remarried and I was having problems with my step dad who was very abusive towards me. Although he didn’t hit me, I wasn’t allowed to eat at the table with them and I weren’t allowed to eat any of the food. I did sneak out to the fridge and got something to eat when he was in bed and my mom would sneak something in to me. But I remember one night while I was sleeping I woke up sensing something or someone watching me. It was a full moon, the light was shining in through my window and I looked up and saw a tall figure that had the head of a goat and a body of a man and it was grey in color with muscular features and it was standing at the foot of my bed watching over me. Ever since that night, I knew I was a child of darkness.
Even while I’m sleeping at night, I often have access to the spirit world where I often see my mother, my sister, and a few other loved ones who passed away so many years ago. My sister, who committed suicide in June of 2008 came to me in my dreams and told me she was my guardian. My mother, who passed away in November of 2005 came to my new apartment cause she was looking for me and she told me she didn’t remember dying. To her, it was like closing her eyes to sleep. Then there was another time when I was in the hospital and I had a dream about my mom’s ex-boyfriend and I saw his obituary with a picture of him. When I woke up the next morning, I knew within a year’s time he was going to die. Sure enough, a year later, I was looking through the obituaries and I saw his obituary and that very same picture. Of course, I could tell you more, but I would have to write a book just to tell them all. But the point is this:
I’m not afraid of these abilities because I know they’re a part of who I am. I have a gift that is unique and one to cherish as well. And for those people out there who experience the same things, you’re not alone. Not many people have these abilities but there are a certain percentage of people somewhere within the 5% range who can. Whether or not, you want to use them; or want to admit that you have them, is entirely up to you. But I noticed the one thing that really gets my mind working is meditation and I think that’s because I’m opening my mind to new things and new ideas. When I meditate, my abilities just seem to manifest before I even know they’re happening. That is why I love the mind and everything about it. It’s amazing.
When people say things like the occult or the paranormal isn’t real, it’s only because they don’t want to admit it or they haven’t experienced it for themselves. And maybe they aren’t one of those people who fall in the 5% percent range. All I can say is, I know it’s real because I’ve experienced it for myself and I think it’s really cool.
INFERNAL DARKNESS 